:D

2009-08-01T06:57:00.001-07:00

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Bye! :D

:D:D:D::::::D

2009-07-28T05:11:00.000-07:00

Yayyyy, I'm always happy whenever I go home.

' Pop! '

2009-07-24T23:20:00.000-07:00

It's not like I care about what you think of me anymore. Say all you want lo.
I'm so irritated with blogger now cos it doesn't allow me to upload photos
>:( x 10000
But on a lighter note, I got myself a pair of loafers!!!!!
:DDDDDDDDD x 1 million

Sunkissed :D

2009-07-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

I like chatting with Guinevere online :))
& I love hanging out with my sec two clique :)) Cos only then, I can be myself. Ahh, I'm looooking forward to next thursday! Yayyyyyy!!!

Mad

2009-07-24T06:04:00.000-07:00

I hope you will regret losing me, and regret everything you've done to me. I hope you'll tear and cry everytime you think of me. I hope you will hurt so much that you'd rather sleep and never wake up. I hope you'll get so depressed about it that you have pimples all over your face. I thought about it and I realised, I shouldn't have apologised. You were the one who started it, Biatch. And now I'm supposed to take all of it?

2009-07-03T22:54:00.000-07:00

Lololol! Dyan's blonde moment number 5 was super hilarious! He actually sat on me, and didnt realise it even after I told him! :0

One way or the other

2009-06-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

Sometimes questions are more powerful than answers. How is this happening? What are they? Why me and not others? Why now? What does it all mean? I’m finding that with each passing day, realization is so much more frustrating than never finding anything.

So I don't know what's up with the June holidays but it's the last week of it already. This holiday is ending too sooooon! :( And it's irritating as hell cause I haven't got enough rest >:( I've not been the least bit disciplined this week and I'm not about to go into details. And ever since I fell sick, my apptite shrunk, that's somewhat a good thing rightttt?? :D

Anyway, I miss you cause you're somewhere far away from me.

Beananas

2009-06-21T05:30:00.000-07:00

Awwww. I hate being sick! :(((((
TSK!

Changed

2009-06-19T06:50:00.000-07:00

Hi! I havent been using the labtop for a long long long time. So here I am, posting photos. I realised there are some photos taken in Pulau ubin that I didnt post. Aiya, next time.

Oh Aiyin, I know you waited very long for the photos alr. Send you the rest next time! =

Anyway:

Oooo

Self timer.(& my fringe sucks)

Jian Xing definitely tiptoed okay.. (& omg.. Aiyin hugged me!!)

I don't dare and dont know how to express myself to you, I don't even know how you feel. It's just not the same anymore :(

More than words

2009-06-13T01:53:00.000-07:00

Everyone, I chopped off my hair and I have short hair now!!! And I look exactly like when i was in sec two(Ahh, for goodness sake, why does blogger take so long to upload one photo??!!!)

Okay, I have a long list of homework here. Gonna do whatever i can ltr.

Hee Hi five Guin! I havc a sudden motivation to study hard tooooo! :D

Okay, Tsk, it actually took me half an hour to upload one pathetic photo. Grrrr.

Ahh, it's raining heavily now and it's super dark here >:(

Anyway, I think Aiyin looks so much better in short hair! Too bad she doesn't think so la!

okay, byebyebye!

Flowers :D

2009-06-08T05:49:00.000-07:00

Ok i'm gonna turn in right after i finish this entry (: 2am the night before, 1130 pm last night, so tonight 1030pm!I dread the weather, it's so humid eeeewwww i think i need to bathe again! That'd be my fourth time. I dread going to school.Anywayyyy, it's frigging annoying and irritating when male grown ups stare at me. I'm not even someone pretty or someone too ugly or too fat. Zzz. Seriously, it gets to my nerve so badly. What's wrong with the guys these days?????? >:( TSKK

HATE THE WEATHER! But whatever..

The bed is calling out for me! I'll go take a bath, and then Zzzzzz. Sweet night everyone! <3

Wonders

2009-06-06T04:04:00.000-07:00

Ernest! I'll miss him terribly!

Anywayyyy, sorry bella for not thanking you on my blog! :(

And although it's abit late :

Bella Yeo Mei Ling

Thanks for the handmad scrapbook and notebook!! Though you spelt my name as Cherl, which is quite a horrible terrible mistake, & even though your initial plan of giving me a suprise failed, I thankyou for putting in the effort! :D To thankyou, I pretended to be shocked when i saw the present outside my house leh! Thanks ar :D

Officially 16

2009-06-01T06:18:00.000-07:00

Okay, So I'm sixteen alr! & I'm two years older than Aiyin ! :D
I must say, my sixteenth birthday was a much enjoyable one! & It can never be so lovely without my lovely friends. So let me express my gratitude to these ppl :

1) Alvin, Claudia, Ching Yee, Darren Lee, Dennis, Hui Wen, Lee Min, Wei Kiat for the birthday wishes :D

2) Cherminn:
For the Strawberry cheesecake Ben n Jerry's Ice cream :D

3) Ruihua
Thankyou for your fabulous hand made card! Haha! I find it so nice tht I showed it to almost everyone i know! & thankyou for the Winnie the Pooh thing. I shall use it to rmb things like uhm, Buy History Elective WB! Also, thanks for the 12 am msg! Yours was the first I received leh! So thankyouthankyou Rey, My Mr Fong's class partner!

4) Ryan
A big thankyou to you for remembering my birthday even after 4 years! Seems like you're the only primary school friend that takes so much initiative :D Oh, and thanks for the 'your cousin is so uncaring towards you' information! Haha!

5) Kok Keong & Ben Lee
Thanks for the two boxes of donuts! :D Even though I felt some extra weight stuck to me after finishing it yst, I must say as i eat every donut, the smile on my face never faded la. Haha! Nvm la, Hope what Kok Keong wished will come true - that I can eat more and wont become fat!

6) Ben Lee
Thank you! For brightening up my day with your super funny yet meaningful sms! Thanks for not forgetting my birthday on purpose ! (LOL) Thankyou for chatting with me even while you're playing game :D It's so rare that you chat with me properly while you're playing leh! So I'm very touched too ! :D Haha, Just thankyou for everything! <3

7) Yong Xiang
I really thankyou from the bottom of my heart, if you know what I mean :D

8) Guinevere

Thankyou Guin! For the yum yum yummy cake that you kidnapped & the lovely birthday song from your sister! Thankyou for inviting Chien Wei to join in our mini celebration so that it wont look so pathetic! (But it wont be even if he didnt join la) & Thankyou for taking a cab to school because of the celebration & having to tolerate the irritating taxi driver! Thankyou Guin!! It's really nice of you! :DDDDDDDDDD <3

9) Aiyin

Thankyou Little one! For the handmade yellow card! Thankyou for taking time to make the card even though you're a very busy person who has to attend birthday parties! Thank you for providing photos to Jian xing so that he can complete my present :D Most of all, thankyou for telling me that. I'm glad you trust me :D & more imptly, I'm glad you have lesser burdens to carry now :D Love you my favourite junior! & friend la!

Last but not least,

10) Jian Xing

I must say, your present is the one that 感动 me the most! Even before I saw it, I knew I was going to love it like super a lot, because it's handmade! Haha, handmade by Peng Jian Xing is so rare you know! Probably once in a lifetime thing for me! & it isn't as ugly as you described it to be! In fact, it's much better than what I expected! It's creative, touching, and meaningful! Seriously, I can see the effort you put in and I'm really really 感动 ! From the colours you pick, to your handwriting, to the way you cut and decorate the photos, I truly appreciate it! Especially the last page - it's such a 可笑又可哭 thing! Although you said go home then read the last page, I read it even before I reached the school's bus stop, cos it's so tempting! & as I read it again, I couldn't help but smile all the way home! I looked like a goodu because of that! But, who caes? Haha, because of you, B One, I'm always happy one lo! & Because of you, E's life got better, and will be better for the next 3 days :D Today I treated him v nicely, and he must have been very happy! rHaha, but on Friday, I cannot treat him nicely. Must pretend to be angry at him then I shuang you know! Oh ya, Haha! I'm also very 感动 that you actually remember the things I told you. Like the story of 'one wrong'! Haha! Wa, not bad! Okay, thankyou thankyou my dear Jian Xing!!! You make my 16th year on earth a very pleasant one! :D

Aiyin dont jealous because Jian xing's one longer than yours hor :D
See, I'm so happy that all my sentences end with a (!)

2009-05-30T05:07:00.000-07:00

Thanks alot beloved Aiyin :D Your sms cheered me up mannn!

A gift from God

2009-05-30T04:17:00.000-07:00

"To see things differently, you don't need willpower, self-confidence or brain surgery. You just need the courage to think the unfamiliar. Next time you are upset, remember it's not so much people who make you angry as your beliefs. Whatever thoughts are causing you pain, they are only thoughts. You can change a thought"

I looked through my photos and I came across pictures of myself when I was a kid, with my family. Childhood is always the best among all days in life isn't it?
I saw the pictures of someone who meant so much to me, who occupied that seat in my heart truthfully. But somehow, I failed to keep our friendship nailed to where it was. No matter what, She was everything good as good can be, all the way. And these photos really play an evil role in reminding you of the times, of the words, of everything. People change, I change, things change. Something small, can alter the course of one's relationship. I feel honoured though cause having her at all, was better than having none at all.

There will come a point in your life when you’d realise who really matters, who never did, who won't matter anymore, and who always will. So, there's actually no need to worry about people from our past. There's a reason why they didn't make it to our future. Treasure and love those before you. Seize every moment where you can be happy and make others feel the same. That’s what truly counts <3

Whatever will be, will be

2009-05-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the last day being in the the same HCL class as Guin, Meiling and Claudia

I get really nostalgic looking at our really dumb and funny pictures :D

I feel particularly talkative these few days. So much to say to my friends, yet so limited .. time/words/concentration! Haha.

I feel what is beyond sad tonight, the lack of ability to understand people. And times when I do, there's no one to confirm that I understood them correctly. There's a true fear within me all the time, the fear that nothing, no friendships, no relationships, nothing can work out for me.

And, that sucks big time.

Imagine life without all the ppl I love (except my family). I guess I would be much happier. It's actually quite sad after 15 years 11 months and 29 days of my life, I can't love someone wholeheartedly. Because so far, I havent found someone ready to accept my love, not any of my friends, and definately not you.

That sucks too.

Homemade happiness

2009-05-22T02:50:00.000-07:00

Hello there!

I've deleted all my other blogs and I'm pretty pleased here.

Forgetting about the past weeks and moving on, there's just so much things to do and I have to keep my focus pocus!

I wanna catch a few old movies actually. Will go rent them at the end of May! June holidays are coming and I am thrilled! This holiday means alot to me and it's only wise to use it well! Well, I'm feeling pretty happy nowadays, even though I've got tonnes of revision and homework drowning me.

I CAN"T WAIT TO TURN 16!

As for what happened a week ago, I say from this I have learnt to take second glances on the simplest things, and appreciate them wholeheartedly.

Bye for now!